Monday, May 11, 2009

many storms

The main battle for Fergus, among many others, is to stop the storming. If the storming stops, then we can do so much more for him. The exhausting part of taking care of him is trying to calm him down. Sometimes we can figure out what he is upset about but often no matter what we do, he won't calm down. After a few hours of trying everything to help him out: constantly trying new positions, quieter surroundings, music, counter-pressure on his back, and massage (which he likes now), we are worn out. I don't like leaving him until he is falling sound asleep and very comfortable but it takes a long time to get him there.

Our older kids are not with us right now. We miss them terribly. We asked Deborah to take them to our home in Alton because they needed space to play and be at ease instead of being in a building like a hotel (where we are now). They are doing well and we talk to them often on the phone. Matt and I are trying (in between visits with Fergus) to find a home to rent here and a job, as close to Fergus as possible. As soon as we get a place, we'll get the kids back up here.

We are dependent on your prayers for all of this to settle soon.
with gratitude, esther

4 comments:

  1. Hello my dear Esther Ruby....
    "Hope deferred makes the heart sick" Proverbs 13:12
    It makes my heart sick (as I positive it does yours) to not see something that is good news.

    I take peace in reading between the lines...that hope has not met the quota, been given out enough, or just not to be had for Fergus....NO WAY...its defered, and on its way.

    Thank you Lord. We beg you Father on Fergus' behalf that you send his healing quickly, that you would calm his little body and tired brain. I pray that you would give the doctors and care staff wisdom to catch immediatly and know what he likes and dislikes. I pray for his Mama to hang in there with hope and stamina and peace and you would also give her eyes to see hear and feel how to make Fergus comfortable. That you would bless this family. My prayers stand as a memorial before you Lord and I will not let you go untill you bless them!!!!!!! Amen...

    I wanted to let you know too that two of my co-workers came asking about Fergus this morning. One asked for his picture that she will take to her prayer group and church and has committed praying for him. I made the prayer group out a list I attached with all the prayer needs you have mentioned here. I say it almost every time I write you you here that there are so many people praying....

    As always you are loved by me....and in my prayers....
    Heather

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  2. Dear Sweet Family-
    The Buckner Bunch is faithfully praying for your precious Fergus each and every day. If I know nothing else, I know the Lord is faithful. He loves your baby boy and He has wonderful plans for him. Give your handsome boy a kiss for us and know that the Lord is already using your son to encourage others. As a mommy of three I'm inspired by your strength and trust. You are not alone in this journey. Rest in the Lord sweet family.
    Bobbie, Jared, Abigail(5), Eliza(3), Andrew(1)
    Asheville, NC

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  3. Hi I am a teacher with Sarah Dohme, we are praying for your baby. Sarah has shared with us about Baby Gus since the beginning of this ordeal and we are praying for him and for your whole family. We pray that God will work the miracle of healing in Gus' body and mind. One of God's names is The God Who Heals, let's continue to ask for healing. Love and prayers from Beverly Cline in Exmore, Virginia

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  4. The most wonderful thing about mom's are their understanding and patience. No one can totally understand what you endure during a situation like this. I have never met you but can physically see your a very patient/loving woman. Thank God every second or everyday that he is able to storm. Things could be a lot different. I pray everyday that things will get better for him. Babies have this wonderful innocense about them that they pick up on others frustrations, and moods. And I truely believe that God has been with Fergus all this way and will continue to be with him. With every set back something good comes along. He never deals you more in life then he thinks you can handle. God, please bless little Fergus and calm his storming, and ease his frustrations. Keep him calm and show him your love. Please help his little brain and body to feel the love and compassion of the doctor/nurse staff, and help him to understand they are there to help him. Please give understanding to their other children that Fergus needs their mommy now. Make it so one day (soon) they will all be happily home together. And Fergus will be right along with them playing. In the name of the Lord..AMEN

    God bless Esther and the hospital staff for their patience and love they bestow on Fergus.

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